Post by survivorjoshua on Aug 24, 2020 14:03:46 GMT
Welp, I'm sorry to the viewers lounge this season. I'm sorry to production. And I am sorry for the rest of my cast.
I truly thought I was playing one of the best games and looking back now knowing what I know... I feel like a fool.
I wish I had some more agency in the game, a little more say but what can I do. I allowed a pregame connection stop me from playing the way I wanted to play and the way i know i can play. The fact that I allowed for this to happen does bother me but I did it and I'm gonna have to live with being the guy everyone probably hates because of it. I am just kind of embarrassed at my performance, I want to change so much. I can do better.
This was a lot of fun and a lot of stress, but I can't even look back now without feeling like a dumbass. All I did was for nothing pretty much, and what I thought was playing good was playing really bad.
Whether I win or lose this FTC, I think that's it for me. I can't do these games anymore.
I truly thought I was playing one of the best games and looking back now knowing what I know... I feel like a fool.
I wish I had some more agency in the game, a little more say but what can I do. I allowed a pregame connection stop me from playing the way I wanted to play and the way i know i can play. The fact that I allowed for this to happen does bother me but I did it and I'm gonna have to live with being the guy everyone probably hates because of it. I am just kind of embarrassed at my performance, I want to change so much. I can do better.
This was a lot of fun and a lot of stress, but I can't even look back now without feeling like a dumbass. All I did was for nothing pretty much, and what I thought was playing good was playing really bad.
Whether I win or lose this FTC, I think that's it for me. I can't do these games anymore.